Worst Week Ever

I was doing pretty good this week. I barely ate all tuesday, wednesday and thursday. And after all my hard work I binged! Ew! I couldn't help it. Once I started eating, I couldn't stop. I hate myself. I hate myself so much. Before last night I lost 8 pounds, but now I probably gained it all back. I am too scared to step on the scale. Worst of all I am failing 3 classes!!! Calculus, chemistry, and history. My teachers keep emailing and calling my parents. No one understands! I can't go to school looking this fat! I don't want people to make fun of me for my weight. I don't want to go back to school until I am skinny! Ughhhh. :(

I can't take it anymore! All I can think about is food! I am starting to feel sick and I have been really tired lately. This morning I had softball practice and then we had to lift weights. I felt so dizzy and lightheaded. And to make everything worse my mom is starting to ask me questions about my weird behavior. I don't know what to tell her. I think she is going to try to get me help! But I don't want help... I want to be skinny!!!
Today i ate...
1/2 a package of oatmeal (85 calories)
saltine crakers (70 calories)
and popcorn (100 calories)
255 calories!!!!!!! Why am I so fat!?!
Does anyone know some food that I can eat that will fill me up but won't make me fat! :( Let me know!

Yesterday was a good day. I only ate 450 calories and went for a 3 mile run. For spring break me and my family are going to Florida. I am not ready! I am going to look so ugly in my swimsuit!!!! :( I have been trying so hard to lose weight but, I still look fat! How can I lose weight fast? HELP ME!

This is my inspiration! I want to look like her!

Help Me

Ana has been my friend for a year now, but I just started looking at some blogs and was inspired so I decided to make one of my own. I need some extra support to stay strong and not eat becuase I feel so fat and disgusting right now. I have been fasting on and off for a year but can never stick to it for more than a week or so. I hate my body and everytime I look in the mirror I cringe. My parents still haven't noticed my eating habits and I hope they never do. I need to keep losing weight so please comment and support me with any helpful tips you  have!